Saturday, April 25, 2009


lately i have felt that things are happening for reasons unknown to me. i think i have things planned out, and then they go off in a different direction. frustrating. i am in a rut right now and don't know how to get out. i'm stuck. everyone tells me, and i know this myself, that things happen for a reason. that is so hard for me. i can only see the surface of what is going on right now, and that i have to wait and see the rest of the iceberg later...sometime in the future when the frustrations are not so pressing. one day i am hoping to look back on this all and go "oh, that's why" and move on like it has made me a better person. i hope things go that way. i really hope.